Hello! My name is Marascalia. I am beginning a new blog where I share with you quotes from people around the world; people who are incredibly beautiful in the mind and that I think one day will have a world famous ebooks, both written by them and in their honor.
Today, I will quote Dylan Hunter, as he reflects on life:
I find it difficult at times to truly create that which I desire. It isn’t that I don’t want the things I desire, but rather that I am reluctant to take confident action in my role as the creator. There is a massive amount of accountability for taking responsibility for one’s own life experience. It can be quite daunting at times. However, I know that my external variables are merely objects of subjective interaction. How I choose to interact with my surroundings is a projection of my inner reality and as such I subsequently create the reality I choose to reside in. So, how does one create an ever-changing reality that is outside of one’s own control? Is it possible? Or is reality always at the whims of the psyche? These are questions that have been asked since the beginning of conscious thought. Yet, if there are objective answers to such inquiries remains a mystery to me.
I am stepping into a newer version of myself that is required in this new chapter of my life. While it feels amazing and I am discovering a newfound sense of confidence, I am aware that I am also experiencing a certain amount of distress within my being. Distress that is defined by letting go of my attachment to familiar patterns of thought and behavior that no longer serve me. It is much like ‘breaking up’ with an old friend or a significant other whom one has shared a ‘toxic’ relationship with. I use the term toxic in the sense that the attraction and relationship itself is founded on recognition of unhealthy thoughts, feelings and behavior and attachment to said facets of self. It is a prolonged “Goodbye”, if you will.
I notice that while I am in a new place in terms of my awareness and growth, I am in the same place I have been in the past in terms of proximity and destination. So, how do I go about making this familiar place anew?
It starts within.
It starts within the fabric of my being. It starts with me deciding not to be the same anymore. It begins with a conscious change of spiritual and psychological infrastructure that hangs on the weight of choice. The choice to not be a victim anymore. The choice to create my own ‘rags to riches’ tale. I am at another crossroads of choice, where the roads defy me destination and promise process. Which way do I want to go? There are so many roads presented at all times in our lives and I think the most difficult part is making the choice. If we don’t make a choice, nothing happens. However, if we do make a choice, then everything is possible. Perhaps the largest obstacle in building self confidence is making a choice, but not just any choice. Perhaps why it is the most difficult is because the bountiful nature of the experience itself relies on choosing that which is most beneficial to one’s self growth and higher truth. Those always seem to be the hardest decisions. Such as: “I am going to be faithful”, “I am going to exercise regularly”, “I am going to eat a healthy diet”, “I am going to exercise my passions”, “I am going to be generous and unconditional with my love”, “I will travel to the ends of the earth to find her.” Perhaps it is decisions of the utmost simplicity that cause us the most distress because in their true nature they almost feel too easy.
Yet again, I could be entirely wrong. That is the best part. I could live my life according to these beliefs, ideologies and theories and at the end of it all while I am lying on my death bed I could realize that I was wrong about the whole thing. Perhaps that is why I find this all to be so enjoyable. There is no consequence to being wrong, even in death. In fact, death may be where the consequence of being wrong is the least deleterious. For in life, we are far less forgiving and tolerant of our mistakes, though we hardly have the capacity to make them. I say this because we are all miraculous pieces of nature like that of a tree, a wave or a cloud. None of these phenomena make mistakes. It is such with humans as well. Be forgiving and dare to fail. It is the only way we will learn, even if it is learning what is ‘wrong’, before we expire. One thing is certain, learning is all we have.”
